Seriously, God’s faithfulness.

God’s faithfulness. God’s wisdom.

It is supposed, even assumed. It is the norm, it is the way. It seems that without this thinking, or strategy, principle, or a series of check marks of accomplished objectives, that ‘it’ won’t work. It seems that vision, the drive of the desire, the goal, the tickling sensation of success is no longer a lofty endeavour, but a risk that is unnecessary… but its okay we have the empty boxes yet to be marked with slanted reverse mirrored L’s.

Obtaining that God-given heart’s desire is not a practical goal, but a risky hope.

God has given us a goal, yet we walk complacent from our God with boxes and boxes of marked papers and carefully thought out, extravagant essays… yet I hear the words “Multiply and Prosper”, yet i hear the words “ask in my [Jesus] name and it shall be done”, I hear have faith the size of a mustard seed… and yet I see fear the size of pharisaical piety… and the “it”, the “supposed, assumed” accepted “way,” is our way, our wisdom, our strength.

I am confused with this generation of God-fearing Christians: The fear of God is as long as their devotional; their religious piety is as long as the emotional high of their worship hymn.

Where is the faithful, God-fearing, in spirit and in truth believer? One that trusts in and leans on and adheres to God, acknowledging Him as He straightens his sons or daughters path?

Are we doing our faith within the confines of our own wisdom?

God’s promises are always a YES. Outside the meaning of His promises and will, I don’t think even sackcloth and ashes will do me any good.
(But that is not to say that God won’t answer my prayer…He can if He chooses to.)

In my 3-4 years walk, run, jog, hop, skip, fall, rise, with Christ :

God answered my prayer for a job, by blessing me with one, then He asked me to give up my job for missions, and I did (which took me four months of prayer), then He asked me to give up this avenue of missions and I did as He lead me into another area of missions… and now He has put into me an incredible desire, and Has been lifting me up from a series of depression and anxiety. He has been strengthing my identity in Him…but it was hard, I stumbled, i fought, i fell, but He kept my eyes on Him, He kept my heart on Him, He kept me in community, He surrounded me with incredible God-fearing people, He loved me all the way through it all.

God is faithful.

3:17 Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
6 In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths.

16 The preparations of the heart belong to man,
But the answer of the tongue is from the Lord.

2 All the ways of a man are pure in his own eyes,
But the Lord weighs the spirits.

3 Commit your works to the Lord,
And your thoughts will be established.

In Jesus Name.


Put your Future on yourself!

Put your future
on yourself
Not on your school,
Not on your parents,
Not on your friends,
But on yourself.

Trust yourself.
Trust yourself today.
Love yourself today.

Know you are valuable.
Keep moving forward!

Put your future on yourself.

But know you’re not alone!

God knows your heart,
He has everything under control,
As He does His part,
Do yours!

Keep moving forward!


The greatest story ever told is not the one you have read, but the one you are walking through right now. And no story ever was worth reading without a conflict. But perhaps you are in conflict…

The desire, the goal, the dream you were pursuing has some how fizzled out, become foggy, and or beaten under the winds of life, lies, temptations, shortcuts, and doubts. Your legs may feel weak, your mind may feel strange, your heart in a dark place, you may be feeling the circumstances of your past weighing you down. But know that in this place God is your editor. He see’s your story, and is the giver of desires. Your leg’s are weak because you need new strength. Your mind may feel strange because you need a new voice. Your heart is in the dark, and you hear it crying out for light. God knows your circumstances.

God hears your tears.

God has a turning point for you, He has a plot twist in the plot twist of your life.

Call out to Him.

Call out to the author of life.

Jesus wants to revive your dreams, revive your strength, revive your voice, revive your heart.

As you come to a turning point in your life, it isn’t the end. It is just another turning point towards a new beginning. And as you come to these points… share your story, people need to hear your story.

Fighting Forward

Moving forward from depression
towards excellence.
Towards happiness.
 I’ve been fighting an internal battle,
 It feels like an eternal battle.
 But there is a victory date.
 And it was a yesterday.
I am a winner!
 I know God is there,
he wants me to use my brain.
 He wants me to use my power.
Use your power.
You have the power.
In fact,
I give myself permission to win.
I am a winner!
I give myself permission to be excellent.
I am excellent!
I choose today, right now,
To fight forward.

Have you met your shadow? His name is anxiety.

Build from the conscious pit that is depression. The chasm’s imagination for death is always thirsty. There are eyes burning red, they burn for they are lost in their only animalistic impulse. Recognize those eyes. Fall deep into them and find your way into their lost soul. And with you bring back a piece of their eternal brokenness… and write.

From consciousness
To imagination
To thirst
To the manifestation
To recognizing its depth
To what lives in its heart
To fleshing out the dry bones stuck in the miry decay of anxiety.

Everything starts with consciousness. Are you conscious of your own consciousness? I bet you are now. That euphoric sensation of realizing something you have always possessed confirms or reaffirms your ownership of something.

Jesus, Reign Victoriously

Back to Square…



The nerve gas of deception, and the sting of held back truth burns through to the bone and leaving him abandoned with the taste of self constructed condemnation. It isn’t over. This is war. Within he musters his will to not let it happen to him again. The lie that he suffered by the hand of one he thought he could trust has now turned on a hinge of indirect psychological warfare.

Determined that he will succeed in this, for

I am the master of trickery and the bribe of bribes,” he declares.

Every piece of me creams with the words kill, steal, and destroy. There is literally nothing that I cannot break. Everything has its breaking point and I will do whatever it takes to find it. Of course, in a hidden, and secured way. Fastened with the element of time, destruction will be the reign of their inner most being, and terror will be on their quivering lips.

But this is all going back to square one. This is falling from grace. This is where he will find the misery of misery, crushed beneath the rock of the universe, and to walk in the path of revenge, hate, and anger he will have found himself a room beside the corpse of the devil himself.

It is almost inconceivable to believe that the devil is alone with him. In fact the devil is only one being. For the devil to spend time with him would mean that he is a threat to the devils temporary existence. He is the awaited symbol of the devils predestined destruction. The bribe of bribes, the trick of tricks, has decided to whisper lies into the pores of his skin and lick the sores of the wounds he inflicts. He then turns thinking to himself “what a mess I am…”

This is true.

I have become a mess for I have followed on a level the bread crumbs of disease.
For the crumbs I consume are the lies I believe.

In his debauchery he has cursed God to his face, rejecting every miracle he has made and forsook his word. Having turned from truth and been molded by the darkness, he injects into his heart, bruising and tearing from the inside out.




Submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.
Draw near to God and He will draw near to you.
Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Lament and mourn and weep! Let your laughter be turned to mourning and your joy to gloom.
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up.

What force does the devil have outside manipulation? Truth conquers all. Truth reigns forever. Manipulation and every evil device cannot escape the climax of destruction. Every action taken against God has in itself tasted death as soon as it was conceived in the heart. And the heart, full of death, has tasted death many times, and finds no peace.

He must increase
And I
Must decrease.

Jesus, Reign Victoriously